I think that I spend far too much time thinking!

I’d say that I have the majority of my life behind me now and sometimes I worry that I don’t know the direction that I’m heading (other than the inevitable at some point) and possibly I feel the most uncertain about life in general than I ever have at any other point in my life. There are ‘things’ that have passed that I can never get back, and some things that I know I’ll lose at some point in the future.
I’ll sit and write about those things to kind of crystalise them and have them down on paper. It helps me think and worry about them less.

The adage ‘life’s too short’ is pretty damn accurate. I read a lot of stoic philosophy and the tenant that you cannot control the things that happen to you, only how you react to them is very true.

Lately I’ve been trying new ‘things’ to explore some of the thoughts about what I want to do with my life. Some of them have given me pleasure, but I don’t feel very fulfilled by them and ultimately I know that I’m going to stop doing them. They were experiments. They weren’t necessarily failures, nor where they raging successes.

I’ve learnt that sometimes you need to be content with what you have, whilst accepting that sometime you will lose some of those ‘things’.

Sorry for the random deep thoughts. I am going to post this but I might delete it later.